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Since nothing important has happened in these past few weeks, I again skipped a week and bringing you a recap of the past two weeks. Nothing has happened really, but then again, nothing ever really happens with my life these days. I just work, read, and wait for my still pending operation which means I’ve now officially been waiting for 1,5 months – past the time I was promised to have this operation. Oh, the health care system is so much fun.
LIFE
As said, no news on the operation yet, and considering the fact that I pushed back my spring vacation subconsciously knowing I might go on sick leave, means I’m tired as fuck. No, I’m passed tired, I’m mentally exhausted and frustrated that every single off day I have had since… the beginning of April, I’ve spent time on either doing work or discussing work. I think I might have had one day last week where I didn’t have to do any work, but that was also because I shut off my social media for most of the day, and stayed in bed. So I’m in a desperate need for a vacation, and my Summer vacation starts at the end of June, which is a month away and I don’t know if I can make it.
Sometimes I wonder if this work is worth all that headache. Like, I sometimes go to work and I love it, I love the challenge of staying on top of everything, and the responsibility has really matured me. But my work has also caused me stress, and it has consumed my life on a much higher level than I would like. When I was a teenager I never really imagined who I will become and what I’d do in the future except that one very utopian dream of becoming a writer, and now I don’t even have time to write my blog, let alone fiction. So I’m struggling a bit, with myself, trying to find that balance between work and having a personal life. And it’s hard. I’ve spent almost a year with this illness and it’s like 11 months of my life that has been about work and health, and I’ve lost track of who I am.
Enough of depressing talk though, I think it helps a bit but it also drags you down to think about these things constantly. I’m trying to push myself to have a certain routine which will keep my mind occupied and away from the fact that I’m feeling like shit. So I’m planning on having a really great week this week. Mentally, physically and emotionally. Having that mindset will hopefully help to power through this week which will most likely be all about work. It helped a little that a fellow blogger did something truly amazing for me and I still can’t believe it. It’s the nicest thing anyone has done for me, especially since she hasn’t even met me in person, and yet, she’s thoughtful enough to give me a present that I will love and appreciate so so much.
MOVIES
The only movie in two weeks I saw was the utter mess called King Arthur: Legend of the Sword. It was.. I want to say it was alright but frankly, it was far from anything alright. There were moments of brilliance, moments where I was like, there, see, that’s so Guy Ritchie and I loved those moments. But other than that, a mess of a movie that I will try to review soon.
The closest movie I anticipate on seeing this month or the beginning of the next is Wonder Woman. The rest don’t give a shit about which just shows how many promising movies are currently at the theathers. There’s just so much blah out there at the moment, and I can’t wait for the blockbuster season to begin.. I know it should have begun with Guardians but it didn’t have that effect on me.
TRAILERS
Snowpiercer was one of those movies I walked into without knowing anything and ended up loving every moment of it. So when I heard its director Bong Jon Ho was doing another English language release for Netflix, I was like, alright, I’m curious already. Then I saw the trailer for OKJA and I was a bit overwhelmed. It looks stunning, it looks weird and magical, it looks like something out of a comic book.. and I want to love it as much as I love it now after seeing its trailer.
Now, I stopped watching Arrow a long time ago. I didn’t even stick long enough with Flash to see its first season. And I have not watched anything else superhero related on CW either. So I’m so surprised there’s another show coming on CW… about a superhero. Black Lightning looks promising enough with its trailer but I will never watch it because I think I’m tired of superhero shows – there, I said it, who’s with me?
TV SHOWS
BABY DADDY GOT CANCELLED AND I MIGHT DIE! Seriously, I know there aren’t many of you out there who watch this show, but those who do are devastated. It has been a show I’ve loved since the first episode and continue to love everything about it. For me, it’s the best sitcom out there, and it’s so sad that it will be over. So sad that I haven’t even managed to watch the latest episodes… I can’t believe it’s over… it ended so suddenly too, I didn’t even have time to prepare myself.
Masterchef Australia is the only show I’m on track with, everything else I’m behind with. I haven’t even tried to watch anything. And there’s like a million Netflix shows out there all of a sudden and I’m like, wait, what, another one is out!? So yes, I’m not motivated to watch TV shows at the moment. Sad really, because there’s so much to see. And Twin Peaks is still waiting for me and now the new season is out and I’m still watching that third episode of season 1…
BOOKS & MUSIC
May has been all about A Court of Thorns and Roses for me, as I’ve reread the first two books, and I just finished the third book last night. It was amazing. I.. I can’t believe it’s over now. What will I do with my life now!? Well, apparently I will hunt down an e-book of Always and Forever, Lara Jean by Jenny Han and read it in one day because I couldn’t hold off not reading it any longer and it was almost perfect. I do have a small beef to pick with it, and there is a little tiny thing that I didn’t want to happen, but overall, utterly adorable!
Last time I did a Commercial Break I didn’t have a music section because I hadn’t really listened to anything specific for a long period of time. Well, that has changed over these past two weeks, because I haven’t stopped listening to Harry Styles’ self titled debut album. It is… it is like honey to my ears and I love every track on that album. Few of my favourites are definitely Woman, Carolina, Only Angel and From the Dining Table. But like I said, I love all the songs!!
LINKS
Film Gilmore participated in My Movie Alphabet Vol 2
Johnrieber also created a great Movie Alphabet (vol 1)
Logan and Mad Max: Fury Road meets Cinematic Corner’s Visual Parallels and it’s magic !
Rambling Film reviews I Am Michael
she also shares her Movie Alphabet Vol 2
Big City Bookworm reviews an upcoming YA novel Eliza and Her Monsters
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