Sh*t, I Fell Off the Grid…

“I’m back,” she whispered through the cracks of the internet. “Did you miss me?” she wonders, even though she distanced herself from the oh-so-familiar years ago and disappeared into the void of what some simply call adulthood.

Yes, she’s been busy—with work, with life, with all those taxes that need to be paid—but that doesn’t mean she hasn’t been writing.

And wait, my apologies. I haven’t started speaking about myself in the third person either, so let’s start over.

Hi, how are you? How have you been? Good? Amazing!

I’ve been busy with life and all things related to work. The past few years brought huge changes, one of them being quitting my job at an entertainment media site. It was a necessary step, but within just three months I realised: I fcking* love writing. And being away from it for so long brought me right back here—to my rusty, clunky, and very dusty old friend, Mettel Ray.

I’ve missed her, even though I know blogs aren’t really a thing anymore and video is all the rage. Still, I believe there must be some blogging enthusiasts out there.

Reunions aren’t really my thing, so this feels incredibly awkward and painfully strange—but I’ll do my best. It’s been… a hot minute, let’s say. While the last post on Mettel Ray went up in the summer of 2023, the years leading up to it were very unproductive. I guess I fell into the trap of writing for a living, which eventually drained my motivation to write for myself.

Shame on me, truly, because writing is one of my favourite things to do.

Another thing that really dampened my motivation was the rise of video blogging. Suddenly, there were videos about everything—applying makeup, thrifting clothes, pulling pranks, and even delivering educational and analytical video essays.

Everyone seemed to move on to a new era, and I wasn’t comfortable enough to go along with it. Blogging became niche, and I didn’t think I was talented enough to be one of the few who could keep it going through writing alone.

I am, by no means, a mediocre writer. And while I do think my experience as a journalist has elevated my skills overall, there always seem to be others who are better.

Granted, this is just my lack of confidence chiming in with its two cents—but I can’t help it. When it comes to writing, I want to succeed. I want to do well and spark a little joy in the heart of a reader. Whether it’s through a strange essay, a review, a vlog, or a visual love letter to a character—I want my creative work to be appreciated by someone out there.

And isn’t that what we all want in life? To be appreciated for the work we do…

Long story short, I’m back to blogging.

What it’s going to look like or become is still a mystery to me, but I’m giving it my all to stay consistent and not fall off the grid again.

In the meantime—oh please—tell me what I’ve missed and how the hell have you been!?